The doctors say that my Aunt only has hours to live, and im to scared to go see. I feel so bad. I want to go see her but I dont want to remember her like that, I want to remember her as she was, happy, outgoing and always causing problems lol. I dont want to see her on her death bed. Is it horrible that I cant bring myself to see her. The problem is that it brings back to many memories of my mom and I really dont want to live through that again, i dont think i could keep it together. My brothers are mad that i haven't gone to see her and I dont think they understand why. I feel like im a bad person for not going to see her. My dad told me not to feel that way, that he knows it was hard for me with my mom and seein it again would just bring back everything. My life hasnt been the same, every day i wish my mom was here so i could talk to her. I have dreams every night of her and I wake up cryin every time. I just dont know what to do anymore.